Tip for a solo concert

A singer-song-writer Mika said in an interview,
Don't lose your tension from the moment you step on the stage until the end of it.
giving his thoughts on how to put on a successful solo concert.

This is quite a strong quote which I think can apply to quite a lot of things.
Being aware of yourself and keeping alert are very important things on maintaining your diligence and motivation.
You must know where you stand, what you aim in order to know what is the next right thing to do.

I have been losing this tension for quite a long time now. I have been flowing with the time letting things happen in the way but I am not sure if I actually led any of the most inportant changes that occured in my life. I did not take the role to actually pursue my aspirations.
Frankly speaking, I was always content about the mediocre things and easy earned achievements. I don't know how a person can be so lazy about developing oneself but I had been like that and never really acknowledged what was missing.

I still don't know what my passion is. I still fool myself every day and engage myself to things I don't even know I really like and care.

I am still lost. I am still lost in the middle.

I am still lost.

I will have to retrack myself and pick up that tension again.